the past is the prologue

Feeling weird and not in the mood of doing anything in this past 2 days.. and I'd been thinking about everything.. like everything.. my life, my work, my family, my friends, my love life.. omG, am i going to die?? errr NOOO.. haha.. knock on the wood 3x.

i just read this

something i inspired : click here for more

well.. dreams..

ya ya ya ya.. some people do said u just dreaming of becoming something, and never believe of dreams. Me.. i grew up as a dreamer, but never realized that i had one. i don't have the talent to make my dream big. i used to think that dream is useless. Its not a reality. i was a shy girl back then. i don't want to be in front of people, i don't want to go on stage and sing and dance, i don't believe that I'm smart enough, i just know that i love design and lots of colors. short word " i don't know nothing about myself"

High School ends... i moved to a university that i never meant to go there. i was afraid of something new. i went to the same school since kindergarten =P. i got culture shocked. it was totally different from school. i got to go to my major that i chose. i felt weird because at first we were just random people, we just like one same thing. colors? hehe

before started classes..

the first day.. or second. it was the time we gather and maybe they called it 'ospek' back then. we were given the song REACH by Gloria Estefan. its about dream, that we had to reach it, that dreams do exists. and everything start from one little step, responsibility. responsibility begins with me. thats what my university said in front of the lobby..hahha

since listening to the that song.. i did start my dream and built it more every single day.

when the dance starts:

i never knew that i will be a dancer, and i will be teaching like now. who support me first? friends. they put me in to this stuff..haha.. since i start it i was dreaming that at least i can stand on with the pointe shoes on. but look at me now. I'm not just standing, I'm dancing with it.

i dreamed that i could dance in a small group of people and watched by some people.. some, yes some. but now!! thousands, millions of eyes watched me

click here to spot me on campus. =P

Master of Ceremony (MC) :

i even never think that i would speak in front of thousands and millions people in ENGLISH. yes! in full English...blahblahblah.

but here i am now, still talking in English because they forced me to..hahahha.. but because of THEM, I'm so brave enough to stand alone in the middle of people who ONLY stares and listen to.. me.. yes only ME. Because of this I'm still dreaming that someday i can talk on the radio,on my own show..hahah

and i do still have a lot of dream that still waiting for me to reach it.

i never now that i have so much dreams. that's why I'm a dancer, designer, and of course a dreamer.

thank you LORD for every single step u gave. all the 'rocks' that make me cry every single day. it make me stronger day by day. dreams DO come true. miracles DO happen.

Dream. Believe. Make it happen. -AM-

Gnite.

-i-